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30.9.09,11:23 PM
i guess, this is the last chance.
last night din slp.morning took bus to meet baby the go eat breakfast at mac.then after that go to his place.hais long story...im so going crazy le.left his place at 9plus to j8 to buy things.after that he send me back home by mrt.reached home, 10plus~baby, im so disappointed.
this is so torturing, i rather eu end it the quick way,
compared to the slow & painful way.
eu make me hate myself so much.
i kept thinking why am i so stupid to believe guys again & again.
why? i dont understand...
if eu think that is time, jus kill me.
pls, end it fast & quick.
i will thanks eu instead.
supermeal 62
29.9.09,9:12 PM
relationship ; friendship
last night i din slp until morning 5am ++then i woke up at 5pm + today.had a bad dream :(called baby then stay at home use com...until ard 7plus meet siru for less than 10mins~then she go liao =.-damn, so i meet jasonlim & his gf.slacked awhile then their friends came so i go meet alvintoh.slack with him awhile the jy came so he off home prepared to go camp.then i slacked with jy until 9 like that i pei him go wait for bus.after that i jiu go home le.sianz =.-today quite bored...tmr meeting baby le!i miss him so much can?hais.baby, i so miss eu.
sob :(
28.9.09,2:17 AM
im so miss baby's arm as my pillow! :)
27th sep :suppose to wake up at 9am then too tired.& today got work at 1pm~end up din go work.cos ytd i drink abit too much than wad i can take it.so hahas din go work.baby also din go work...yawns, i woke up at 3plus in the afternoon.i dk baby woke up at wad time but i only know he wake up much earlier than me.i rmb him kept trying to wake me up but.. hahas *oink*after i woke up we both use com until ltr ard 5plus eat our breakfast+lunch+dinner.then go back use com until at night ard 8plus we left there.cab to hougang then baby go take mrt to cck to find his friends.while i go bbq, for my brother birthday de.eat abit there cos i quite full.then say bye to all my relatives then i go home eat mango cake!!yummy!then use com...until 12plus i go meet shawn pei him to ave 8 for his supper.i din eat but he treat me a ice milo :)then we slacked & chatted awhile before walking home.he send me back 1st then he jiu go home le.reached home at 1am plus.baby, i sososo hate my bed :(
i more used to eurs.
& i wan eur arm compare to my pillow!
i miss eu.
enjoyed myself today too!
muackz!
supermeal 61
26th sep :morning woke up went kovan there eat breakfast with family.then go home prepared to go work~today not alot of customers~anyway finish work at 9pm & cousins they all came to find me~so i talk to them until 9.30pm then i go take mrt to batok to find baby & his friends.in the train, i was so damn angry lo!a crazy man in his 40's came to step me purposely before he alighted!damn it, so painful lo!anyway i called to baby & complain to him!!when i reach batok, jus right baby came to fetch me.then we together walk to the place to find the rest.walk half-way then going to reach liao then baby piggyback me to there!!hahas so damn fun lo!reach there hear them sing then drink abit then awhile ltr baby & chunyong go pool.i din go i pei the rest there listen to them sing.they force me to sing too!!hahas i so malu la!cos my singing suck to the core!anyway sang then naomi bring me to go find baby & chunyong.pei them play pool awhile then we go back.had great fun then after that we total got 10 ppl then we split to 2 cabs take to some coffeeshop which i dont know where=.-slacked there some eat & some drink~after that chat awhile then jiu go home le.me & baby cab from there to bishan & the fare is ard $20 =.-counted as cheap le ba...then we bathed & had candlelight before sleeping at 6am in the morning.baby, this is 5th candlelight #60
i really really enjoy myself today.
sorryfor letting eu worried when i cried.
but im really happy that eu are by my side, when i need eu.
baby, i love you.
25.9.09,11:11 PM
banjamin chee's 10yrs old birthday!
last night meet up with shawn at 4am =.-we chatted until 5plus he then go home~after that i nvr talk much with baby he jiu go slp le :(i morning 7plus then slp..then i woke up at 4 in the afternoon.baby say afternoon meeting me de so i wake up jiu call him.but... he say he meet his teacher :(sadded anyway i spend my time at home until baby come back to meet me at 6.30pm~we went to venus for l4d :)played for 2hours then baby send me back home.reached home before 10pm~today go out din spend much, played 2 hours, eat & drink together we spend $10++i wan to pass baby so money but he dont wan take :(but he nvr notice that i actually put 4bucks into his wallet :Ptmr got work :(so sian lo!!then dont know whether baby got time to come pei me go lunch a not~today is my precious brother, BENJAMIN's 10yrs old birthday :)i wish he can recover & be back as normal!ben, i miss the times when eu call me jiejie, when eu squat down & insist that i carry eu!i promise, as long as eu can recover, dont matter wad eu wan i will try my very best to fufil it!ben, jiejie love you :)baby, happy that today is able to meet eu.
although only meet few hours :(
but at least better than nth :)
i miss eu so much!
24.9.09,11:07 PM
boring & miss baby loads.
today woke up at 2plus thanks to brendan's call =.-then i called baby let him know~after that i on9 & also called jason to ask him to meet to slack.then i ard 6plus like that go down meet alvin 1st~slack until 8 like that then go meet jason~awhile ltr jy came~we slacked until 9.30pm like that then go home le~today so bored :(nvr meet baby also :(damn miss him~tmr going meet him ba :)baby, i din meet eu today:(
missing eu badly:(
but nvm tmr we meet ok?
i love you :)
muackz!
23.9.09,11:58 PM
supermeal 59 & baby's aunt birthday!!
last night din slp~then ard morning 6am plus cabbed to baby's place.used com & slept until 11plus wake up~prepared & we cabbed down to bishan with his mom & aunt.waited for their friend & the daughter to come then we all took mrt down to town~alighted at somerset then walk to orchard central de ' ah yi tian xia ' restaurant to eat.yummy but the food is so expensive!the abalone so ex!i had the pork cutlet rice w/o the abalone while baby had the chicken cutlet rice w/o the abalone.the price diff or with abalone & w/o is $7++means 1 small abalone is $7++ so ex lo!anyway me & baby din order the 1 with abalone!finished the meal & the price for 6 ppl is $200++after eating we walk walk ard there & baby bought me a new ez-link card holder!winnie the pooh de, got shiny shiny also :)& aim a handphone pouch!is damn damn damn chio lo is bling bling & got studs de.cost $15.90 wor...after i buy new phone i must go back there to buy the pouch!we walk until tangs there & bought baby's slippers & shoes then his mom jiu go work le.then their friend & the daughter went off.so baby's aunt, baby & me we go to amk together.help baby's mom to buy things then we go take bus back to baby's place.btw i bought new nail polish also.. is shiny purple :)reached baby's place then his aunt go home 1st.while me & baby went to buy bubble tea for her & also bought cheese fries for ourselves :)at baby's place use com...he teach me play dota!quite fun but yet complicated!i want to train again!!then play l4d after that we ordered mac delivery.eat until 11pm then i go back for l4d until 11.30pm like that then go down cabbed home :)today kept cabbing =.- lols.tmr baby maybe not going to meet me..but nvm...i today enjoy so much!baby, im really happy today.
is been so long since i can be so happy with eu :)
i dont know why but i felt so happy,
when eu said eu wan to be like be4.
i also miss those sweet times :)
i really love eu a lot.
supermeal 59 :)
i love you dearly.
muackz!
,2:33 AM
movie since long long time ago :(
today woke up by jason at 2plus~baby suppose to morning me but he din.this is alr the 3rd time he din morning call he when he say he will.but she jus said once & he morning call her.wtf?!anyway woke up prepared & meet jason to slack awhile until 3plus~went home waited for baby...he bought tickets for 7pm de.but i 5.30pm called him he say he still at dhoby there playing pool.he still say he will come hougang fetch me before going for movie at amk hub.hais.anyway he reached my place at 6plus~took bus down to amk & jus right go in awhile jiu start le.watched G force.the show quite cute lo!finish the show then we walk walk ard hub jiu go take bus back to hougang.went to playground there to talk talk.hais i dont know whether this time still works not.but i guess not.im still dont feel loved by him.he sended me back home by 10plus lo~baby, dont give me hope.
im so scare, becos it always bring me disappointment.
my heart shattered into a million pieces.
i dont know wad else to do.
eur the 1st guy i ever love until so painful.
dont hurt me anymore will eu?
i really dont know how long more i can endure.
i dont wan to say goodbye to eu.
i afraid that day will come.
it hurt so much...
pls baby, love me the way eu used to can?
i miss that eu so much...
21.9.09,11:44 PM
supermeal 58 :)
lsat night din slp, went out at 4plus.cabbed to baby's place~watch him play dota until 6.30am~we then slp until afternoon 1pm ++he woke up 1st & accidentally elbowed my back~he dont even know that he elbowed me & i actually woke up & fake slp.saw him go on com & i open my eyes & stare at him.anyway he got shocked when he saw me staring at him.after that i ask him to on the 2nd com for my to play.he play dota & i l4d until half-way we both hungry...so he ask me help him with his dota while he go prepare food...i dont know how to play jus anyhow lo~anyway he came back with ice cream instead =.-i tot he going take so food in that can fill us up =.-finished ice-cream & his dota then he go prepare lunch~had lunch then back to room continue his dota & i continue my l4d~play until evening time we prepared & left house to amk~he pei me wait for bus then he jiu go off le~reached home at 10pm today.then ard 12.30am wg came over to find me & slacked awhile at my place until 1.30am then he go off.tmr dont know where to go =.-baby also cannot confirm with me whether bringing me for movie not...jus becos he dont know whether he going out with his friends not.wadever, i dont wan to put to much hope in it~cos normally putting hope in him will bring me great disappointment.used to it alr.. hais.baby, misses
supermeal 58~
love you.
20.9.09,12:47 AM
toothache!
damn it!i got fking toothache :(sososo painful & unbearable.last night i kept turn here & there due to the pain.morning woke up & cannot tahan so go eat a painkiller.go work that time still ok wont pain.then work until 6plus wg came to find me, pei me go walk walk.until 7plus he go off then i work until 9 & my dearest baby surprised me :)he msg me telling me he still in mrt & next min, he is behind me :)anyway im happy lo.hahas, he waited awhile for me then we jiu go off together :)my baby is so sweet to me today :)he know i din eat for dinner so he alr tabao chicken rice for me :)we went to take bus 101 back to round table there to eat.i shared with him cos i see his eyes kept staring at the rice.after eating we slack awhile more until 10plus.he jiu send me back home le.i miss him so much.reached home & my toothache started!damn, i tried to bear with it...until 12plus, i cannot tahan le!went to take another painkiller, but this time the pain is still there...hais if ltr before i go bed still pain then i jiu go eat panodol liao!hais!! toothache, go away pls?baby, the moment i saw eu,
tears almost rolled down.
do eu know i miss eu so much?
my dear, i love you.
18.9.09,11:53 PM
quarrelled.
woke up late.suppose to meet up with johnson to surprise siru at her place.but she come over to my house nearby.so change of plan, i meet johnson at my house here.johnson came & jason went home to change.johnson slacked with us for awhile & chat with siru he jiu go off le.waited for jason to come down then we go take bus to tamp to meet that idiot jy.reach there & his so called 'gf ' went home =.-damn it lo. tot can see her de =.-anyway celebrated for siru with a cake :)after that the guys go buy 2 bottle of beer back to share.then we still very curious abt jy's gf.so we went up her place and called her house phone.( she dont have a handphone, thats wad she told jy. )we stand outside her house while calling yet we dont hear any phone ringing.but then we can see light from her window & can hear a bit of tv de sound.anyway, i think this so called ' gf ' got problem de..lols.then we left there & went over to zijian's place there.we 4 slacked at playground chat until 10plus we left there.siru go zijian's house while we 3 go take bus back to hougang.i reach house ard 11plus~then at 12plus i go out meet wg until 1plus go home.baby, nth more to say.
jus misses.
16.9.09,11:47 PM
moody~
told baby to morning call me today again~& he din again~dont know why.woke up at 12plus~rot at home until 4pm then go meet jason & siru~slack awhile the go to mall~siru bought her things then we go pasta mania~pei siru eat~after that baby came & joined us~then we go tabao bubbletea & 1 packet of chicken for baby.then we go find voideck to slack~baby had his rice while the 2 of them do homework~we then chatted until 9plus then baby go home.we 3 continue to slack there until jy & joel came at 10pm~slacked until 11pm then we all go off le~tmr not gona meet baby :(i also dont know where to go le~anyone free?lols.babytoot, i dont know wads wrong with eu today.
eu so no mood but at least jus now i manage to make eu smile:)
i really dont wan to see eu upset or wad...
anything jus tell me ok?
dont bottled it up in eur heart.
i love you dearly!
muackz!
15.9.09,11:05 PM
6mth anni :)
today woke up late...part of the reason is baby never morning call me as promised :(anyway after that i prepared & went to meet jason & siru for awhile.ard 3plus i go take bus88 with siru while jason go home.reach baby's place at 4plus :)watch him play dota then i also play l4d :)today i played the map no mercy :)play half way only... then baby jiu finish his dota le...so i let him play for me while i use facebook :)after that we chatted & then went down to buy cheese fries & bubble tea :)came up & baby say he going to prepare dinner...he said that the kitchen is out of bounds to me :(so i stay inside the room & use com lo.roughly ard 7plus baby jiu done le :)yummy!he cooked some stir fried pork, deep fried chicken, cheese tofu & salmon :)yummy all so nice lo :)had great dinner :)after that we watch tv together & also use com :)ard 10plus baby send me down to wait for cab :)tmr meeting baby again :)update last friday 11th sep : 4th candlelight #55 :)supermeal #56, 14th sep.babytoot, im so happy today :)
time flies so fast & we were together for 6mths.
i know we can last :)
& im looking forward to our 1 yr :)
baby, promise me, we are gona last alrights?
supermeal 57
i love you.
muackz!
11.9.09,12:40 PM
bored :(
ytd forgot to post =.-reached home too late then lazy to post le~ytd woke up quite late after that at home rot until afternoon wg came over my place find me.pei me go round table there slack to wait for jason to come.slack very long then he haven come =.-so i asked wg to pei me to interchange to make my ez link card.after that we took bus101 to ave 8 to ask about my psp thing.damn expensive sia =.-so din do after that we walk back round table meet jason.on the way saw qianhui & her friend~chat with her a while we jiu go off le.slack with jason & wg at round table until around 6 plus then jason go home.me & wg go up my house becos stupid wg say wan use toilet =.-after that jason came up my house meet us then we go to take mrt.but last min wg dont wan go =.-sianz go he go off while me & jason go take mrt to city hall.walked to suntec then call jy to come out lo.slacked with him for awhile then pei him go back.saw a few friends there...ard 8pm me & jason go marina sq eat...cos need to wait until 9 pm then jy finish work.finish eating then we walk back alr 9pm le...when he finish we go take mrt together back hougang.each bought a cup of bubbletea after that slacked at round table.chat until 12mid then jason go home while jy send me up my house :)actually is i ask him to pei me de cos i scare :Plast night lie on bed still not tired.slpt at 4.30am in the morning =.-ltr going out with cousins for sakae at kovan :)looking forward lo!will be back posting tonight maybe...babytoot, din meet eu ytd...
kinda feeling a bit heart pain :P
i guess is miss eu too much ba.
nvm gona meet eu tonight right?
i love you baby. i always do...
9.9.09,11:29 PM
troublesome bitch.
today's date : o9/o9/o9today woke up late~meet up with jason to slack awhile jiu cab down to baby's place.watch him play dota while i l4d awhile.after that i sian le so lie on bed wait for him to finish his dota & pay attention on me :)he ard 6plus finished~after that we had a talk.actually i dont know things would turn out this way...anyway we talked things out~felt much better after that but still not very happy abt it!damn it, but at least the rest of today we spend time together happily :)alrights, the problem between me & him is still not solve,but i believe this problem will go away soon!i hope so!but im not gona post the problem here.maybe not so soon yet... :)babytoot, i hope eu really know wads the problem.
& hope eu can solve it real soon.
& this thing make me v.v.v irriated & hate her as well.
i trust eu, but i dont trust her.
i hope eu rmb wad i said today.
i love you.
supermeal 54
6days til our 6mth anni :)
MarilynYuRuiQi
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