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30.1.09,1:03 AM
im single!
i dont know i should be happy or sad.
end our 2yrs relationship 1 week ago.
still feeling upset i wonder how you're feeling?
everytime pass by your house i had the urge to go up.
though i know i dont have keys anymore but i just wan to stand outside hoping you will be there to open the door for me.
till now i still find it hard to face you becos i scare that i might go back to you.
it took my friends 1 weeks to convince me to let go & only took you 2 hours to make me come back to you.
the 1st 2 days after broke up i hatred you.
but after that i miss you.
everytime i see couples i think of us.
i go anywhere i think of you.
rmb that when the 1st time we went out i was such a 'mountain pig' ?
anything i also dont know & not sure.
at least now i know quite alot? thanks to you.
you teaches me a lot.
14feb is near, if we are still together it will be our 2yrs2mth anni & also Vday.
this year i guess i have to celebrated it myself?
i really misses you, that day went your house i saw you.
on the way home i cried becos i miss your hug i miss your everything.
that night i walked home from your place.
i cant sleep every night becos i din get to hear those 4 words.
i had to stay up til morning then i feel tireed then can slp.
when i woke up i got nothing to do & i will kept thinking of you.
i dont know why you din try contact me after that.
do you still love me? or her?
you kept asking me to return you the psp.
i wan to but im thinking why cant you meet me to get it yourself?
on the other hand, when you bought the psp you said you dont wan me to pay.
after i start working you demand me to return you the psp money.
fine i can give you i dont mind.
but now after we broke up you demand the psp back becos i din give you the money.
if you think wad you GAVE me you can have back, how about wad i GAVE you?
my feelings? my time? my efforts? 2lives? how are you gonna return me?
tell you the truth, i din wan to return the psp becos i still hoping that you will contact me yourself. after the day we brokeup, i din even touch the psp until now. cos everytime i see it, it reminds me of you.
everything i do i see everywhere i went, reminds me of you.
i miss those times when we are so happy together? went out shopping? have fun at escape? watch movie together?
you're the 1 person i ever watch movie with other than my own family.
within our 2yrs relationship i only watch once with my classmates on careerday. & i cried even be4 the movie start cos i no use to it when you're not beside me.
i wanted to watch 'the wedding game' within this few days.
but i not sure whether will you watch with me?
even if you do im still scare that i will go back to you.
if you ever get to read this, will you at least contact me as a friend?
BABY I MISS YOU!
MarilynYuRuiQi
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