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31.1.09,4:58 AM
I MISS YOU!
i really do miss you.
if eu think that i really do love my part time boyfriend?
pls think that why i had done those things.
you think i wanted?
they were the ones who really look after me after that thing.
do eu know how painful is me to go through such thing twice?
think about it la.
1st time still ok, but 2nd time?
it really hurts my heart alot.
i wanted to visit you alone but im scared that eu will be like last time.
use violent on me to make me stay.
how would i know whether when eu would ki siao again & beat me again?
i actually tot of going over to your place jus now but you're alone at home im scared.
i really do miss those times together.
2yrs i cant let go so easily.
after the thing im still bleeding till now, pain till now, worse than the last time.
i was jus waiting for you to ask me how am i.
but eu din, yes eu did ONCE, only after your mom ask eu to do so.
do eu know how painful it was when i find out?
& can eu stop using that attitude on me when everything is not only my faults?
if eu din start playing 2timing things wont be like this.
tell me, where can eu find a girl who can endure eu to 2time her thrice?
even when eu had sex with those girls?
i jus keep quiet & let it go.
& now eu say eu nvr think of wad happen the last 2yrs?
that means eu are really not a man.
wad i can do for eu is not all girls can.
think about it, eu are not young anymore, eur 21 this yr.
when can eu be more mature?
eu say eu will kick the playboy style & actually eu did, until eu start to have fixed income the habit came back again.
eu kept thinking that money can give eu everything.
but eu totally wrong, money cant give eu a girl who truly loves eu & not eur money.
if eu think that thai girl can give eu more than wad i gave, eu think that eu can be happy with her last long, i can only bless eu 2.
but there is 1 thing i really hope eu can do it.
BODY CHECK UP!
how can eu confirm she is clean when eu say she is a protitude?
im very happy that eu had not touches me after eu know her.
but im worry for eur health & eur family.
if eu dont wan to think about eurself, pls dont be as selfish as be4, think about eur family.
eur family had did no wrong so pls stop giving them eur stupid,unreasonable,childish & inmature attitudes.
with eur this attitude it will brings eu nowhere except harms.
no matter wad i still wan to let eu know, i really do love you till now after wad eu had done.
MarilynYuRuiQi
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