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31.1.09,4:58 AM
I MISS YOU!
i really do miss you.
if eu think that i really do love my part time boyfriend?
pls think that why i had done those things.
you think i wanted?
they were the ones who really look after me after that thing.
do eu know how painful is me to go through such thing twice?
think about it la.
1st time still ok, but 2nd time?
it really hurts my heart alot.
i wanted to visit you alone but im scared that eu will be like last time.
use violent on me to make me stay.
how would i know whether when eu would ki siao again & beat me again?
i actually tot of going over to your place jus now but you're alone at home im scared.
i really do miss those times together.
2yrs i cant let go so easily.
after the thing im still bleeding till now, pain till now, worse than the last time.
i was jus waiting for you to ask me how am i.
but eu din, yes eu did ONCE, only after your mom ask eu to do so.
do eu know how painful it was when i find out?
& can eu stop using that attitude on me when everything is not only my faults?
if eu din start playing 2timing things wont be like this.
tell me, where can eu find a girl who can endure eu to 2time her thrice?
even when eu had sex with those girls?
i jus keep quiet & let it go.
& now eu say eu nvr think of wad happen the last 2yrs?
that means eu are really not a man.
wad i can do for eu is not all girls can.
think about it, eu are not young anymore, eur 21 this yr.
when can eu be more mature?
eu say eu will kick the playboy style & actually eu did, until eu start to have fixed income the habit came back again.
eu kept thinking that money can give eu everything.
but eu totally wrong, money cant give eu a girl who truly loves eu & not eur money.
if eu think that thai girl can give eu more than wad i gave, eu think that eu can be happy with her last long, i can only bless eu 2.
but there is 1 thing i really hope eu can do it.
BODY CHECK UP!
how can eu confirm she is clean when eu say she is a protitude?
im very happy that eu had not touches me after eu know her.
but im worry for eur health & eur family.
if eu dont wan to think about eurself, pls dont be as selfish as be4, think about eur family.
eur family had did no wrong so pls stop giving them eur stupid,unreasonable,childish & inmature attitudes.
with eur this attitude it will brings eu nowhere except harms.
no matter wad i still wan to let eu know, i really do love you till now after wad eu had done.
30.1.09,1:03 AM
im single!
i dont know i should be happy or sad.
end our 2yrs relationship 1 week ago.
still feeling upset i wonder how you're feeling?
everytime pass by your house i had the urge to go up.
though i know i dont have keys anymore but i just wan to stand outside hoping you will be there to open the door for me.
till now i still find it hard to face you becos i scare that i might go back to you.
it took my friends 1 weeks to convince me to let go & only took you 2 hours to make me come back to you.
the 1st 2 days after broke up i hatred you.
but after that i miss you.
everytime i see couples i think of us.
i go anywhere i think of you.
rmb that when the 1st time we went out i was such a 'mountain pig' ?
anything i also dont know & not sure.
at least now i know quite alot? thanks to you.
you teaches me a lot.
14feb is near, if we are still together it will be our 2yrs2mth anni & also Vday.
this year i guess i have to celebrated it myself?
i really misses you, that day went your house i saw you.
on the way home i cried becos i miss your hug i miss your everything.
that night i walked home from your place.
i cant sleep every night becos i din get to hear those 4 words.
i had to stay up til morning then i feel tireed then can slp.
when i woke up i got nothing to do & i will kept thinking of you.
i dont know why you din try contact me after that.
do you still love me? or her?
you kept asking me to return you the psp.
i wan to but im thinking why cant you meet me to get it yourself?
on the other hand, when you bought the psp you said you dont wan me to pay.
after i start working you demand me to return you the psp money.
fine i can give you i dont mind.
but now after we broke up you demand the psp back becos i din give you the money.
if you think wad you GAVE me you can have back, how about wad i GAVE you?
my feelings? my time? my efforts? 2lives? how are you gonna return me?
tell you the truth, i din wan to return the psp becos i still hoping that you will contact me yourself. after the day we brokeup, i din even touch the psp until now. cos everytime i see it, it reminds me of you.
everything i do i see everywhere i went, reminds me of you.
i miss those times when we are so happy together? went out shopping? have fun at escape? watch movie together?
you're the 1 person i ever watch movie with other than my own family.
within our 2yrs relationship i only watch once with my classmates on careerday. & i cried even be4 the movie start cos i no use to it when you're not beside me.
i wanted to watch 'the wedding game' within this few days.
but i not sure whether will you watch with me?
even if you do im still scare that i will go back to you.
if you ever get to read this, will you at least contact me as a friend?
BABY I MISS YOU!
12.1.09,9:33 AM
LIFE FUCKING SUCKS!
arrghhx.
work for months din get a single pay yet.
WTH ?
heartache liao.
dont know wad he wants.
properly got other girls ?
dont know la.
morning went his place to surprise him tot wan send him to work.
then he told me he not at home at friend's place.
FUCK?
irritated la.
meet jason that idiot for breakfast & he talk much cock with me.
lols.
dont know wad else to write le.
continue again..
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